Back to the old....360º turn on life.

Hmm I have to talk with Ru about this, and if she reads this before I talk with her(I may forget =. =' usual of me) sorry love, but the other template was a bit..."iffy"....just realized when I started to work with it...

Anyways back to the matter at hand, seems the days of not worrying ended....problems on r.l were able to k.o me for good this time, and sadly, being active like I was planning wont be possible like I was thinking....

Project RX:1 is halted until further notice, other projects like the MC channel I was planning with the guys, from my side is halted too...
About further projects on the webs, BH is still up and kick'ng wille I can still support it, and this, if Nexon Europe finally gets the staff they much need to work around the problems they are facing now.
Music that shows a bit my fellings.....the hate I have atm for some people...yes HATE....first time in many years I'm in eager to "do something wrong."

some stuff didn't changed tough, Ru is still my pillar, if it wasn't for her, I don't know what I've been done by now, thank you babe.

Project "RX-1"

After a lot of time thinking if I should actually pull this up or not, the time is now, the time to pull up old projects and make them "new" again, this time Ill try to organize it the better I can, and actually "show" something of value to give the "future community" something to look foward.

Tales of the Past - "Eriul"

"Eriul" or "Er-iul" the way the name was said varied from person to person, Eriul was 23\24 old guy, he worked like any ordinary person at is age at the school I used to attent, normal guy over all, altough a lot of people called him a "geek", a lot of people know whats the meaning of "geek" so I'm not going to get in detail about it, I already made a semi description of Eriul, but going to get a bit more into detail, Eriul was kind, a person that had a big heart to help others, he helped me A LOT of my school days, and he teached me A LOT about computers, after being invited to UO by him my respect for him raised even more, having an epic HUGE guild to lead wasn't an easy task, altough most of the players were mature, dealing with a large group of players each one sharing an opinion is hard, very hard.

Eriul, was even on UO, what I can call a "Arcane Knight" he was what I wanted to be since the start, controling the ways of magic at the same time you can control the ways of melee at the top.

Ystrion created this image and named it "Battle Mage of Risengarad"

But even so, this is the image that can describe the best Eriul.

Thank you....

After a bit of time "on an emo mood" with the help of my friends(Thank you Vlad and Genis) and with the support of Ru, I got over the fear that was haunting me...back to posting like always, expect more updates on the blog soon!

Lost in "Fear"

Stupid.....isn't it? at the start of the high point of my life...after a lot of time of frustrations...a lot of time suffering for the past...


Yes...fear...everyone feels fear at a point in their lives...I felt it for real, real fear one that sofucates...makes your guts twist out of nothing...for the second time of my life now...something that I simply cannot control...something...that...I can't explain...
Losing one thing means losing everything now...how Ill I face everyone if I fail....how...Ill I face them, the ones I love and respect most.....

"Lost in fear...without knowing were to turn to..."

Tales of the past - "Rise of Brotherhood and betrayal of the Emissary"

The Brotherhood risen up to be one of the most popular guilds on the shard we used to play(sorry but it was long time ago, I can't recall the name of the shard\"server")
Eriul was a person that I respected since I meet him, kind, helpfull and calm 24\7, he lead Brotherhood is Iron first, he once told me;
"Respect to deserve the respect of others Siul, even if its an Online game, theres a person on the other side of the screen."
The guild it self even without me being active like most of the other members continue on, after getting a high stand on our shard...problems started, interior rummors that one of our members, was planning to take on the guild...

For the one thats don't know UO haves a epic guild system that even if your the guild leader you can be taken down if your not doing your job properly, or if the members so that way desire to promote another to Guild Leader possition.

東方 Touhou Metal/Vocal 282

Tittle says it all, once again Chaos got us a master piece the vocals about a bit "off" on the highs but heck, its "fan made" we can't expect perfection to the max can we?

enjoy.